Does everyone's thoughts start in the middle?

I always think like I have started in the middle of the conversation. All my best thoughts come from the middle of what is going on in my head, yet at the same time seem to make no sense. Because they come from the middle of the conversation, no one knows what is really going on. kinda like this blog. I guess I am just having a rough couple of days, the distance is getting to me and it seems like this deployment won't end. There is a good possibility of extension, which bothers me, but then I think, if it isn't my husband it will be someone else's and what might that person miss? Birth of a first child, baby's first birthday. And at the same time, is that one child any more important than ours? But I am not a selfish person and I am willing to share. At any rate, life is nothing if not change and challenge and without it we would still be sitting in a cave with little or no evolution.

Just because I am smiling doesn't mean I'm happy

Today didn't go all that well. I don't seem to have any energy or patience. Days like this make me curse the navy for having deployments. Usually I would throw the kids at their dad and go run off somewhere, but that is not possible today. While I am proud of my husband and what he does, that doesn't mean I am always happy about it. Especially on days like today. More and more I find myself talking and acting like my mother. Not that it is a bad thing, she is great, but I just never thought I would say the things she says. But you live what you learn.

Did my brain leak out in my sleep?

So, here I am new day excited about getting my new computer desk, finally. Mostly because of the now crippling pain in my shoulder. Yeah! Except it comes in like 8000 pieces and requires some kind of special hand-eye cordination that God didn't see fit to bless me with. So 2 hours and several hand blisters later it is put together and ready to go. one problem, i can't move my computer because i didn't buy a longer phone cord, as my current one is too short for the new location. jackass!!!. i am lucky i can get out of bed everymorning without injuring myself. ( now able to do that 5 days out of 7 ). and to top it off i could have skipped the gym this morning because putting together that damn desk was enough of a work out. Oh and my shift key.... still mocking me. gotta love it's persistance.

I am a jackass

Ok, so i am looking at my whole new blog and i am trying to figure out how to add links to my site. can't do it. nothing is working so i give up, only to look at the clock and see it is now 1 am. i am not all that tired, but i do have to get up early to take my son to the bus stop for preschool, and then head up to the gym. Yet here i am, still awake and pissed because of my links. And also getting carpal tunnel as i am with out a proper computer desk or chair. let me set the scene. i have an old fashion sewing machine, the kind that is in a table, my whole system is on there, monitor, hard drive. no room for my keyboard, that is on a small circular table. oh and i am sitting on a rocker ottoman, so i am like a good 8" down. and my mouse is resting against the hard drive so i have to reeeaaach to click. my shoulder muscle is in pain and i wonder if i am doing permenant damage to my arm. but help is on the way. later today i am getting my desk and chair out of layaway and saving myself years of unbearable pain from improper use of office equipment. which is good, since i haven't been right since having kids. oh and my shift key is still mocking me. i think it enjoys taunting me. however good news is my caps locks works just fine.......

Yet another day

Well I am new to blogging so forgive me if I make any mistakes. It really is just another day for me, with my husband out on the big, blue ocean and my children driving me nuts. My one solace is that i leave for Las Vegas with my oldest daughter in a week. She is a cheerleader for a local All-Star team and this is their final competition. I am most excited because my two little ones are off to the sitters for a while. It keeps my spirits high, with my hubby out to sea for the next 5 !/2 months. He is in the navy and is out on his deployment right now. i try and keep busy, currently am crocheting skull caps for my little ones and trying to finish my blanket. However am not too confident that i will. also trying not to get carpal tunnel from all the crocheting. The weather has gotten so cold. I live in Washington state and for awhile we were riding high with all the sun and warm weather. Now the true weather has come. Wind and rain and really really cold days. I apologize for a lot of non capitalized words. My shift key has developed an attitude about working. Like my kids, it is singing to me, " not gonna work". and on that note going to end for the day. Enjoy