sad....

I can't shake today's sadness. I am trying, but it feels like a heavy blanket just weighing on me. I want to call my friend, but feel like I have nothing to say. Really I don't want to call her. I just want to go over to her house and be.. but she lives too far away. I want too many things that aren't gonna happen. and that sucks. I want to not be sad, I want to not be upset when i don't hear from my husband for a few hours. I wish I could be more coherent at the moment. I really just want to get the last few weeks back to do over again.....

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